Serenity Personified

Saturday, August 30, 2008

What a way to end the day with snacks for supper despite having my room in a total despicable mess. Ultimately the leadership course earlier on was effective and to some extend i wasn't remorseful nor was i being lethargic during the training itself.

Run baby run

-Braces

Labels: Snacking

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Happy Teachers Day!

Practically today was filled with joy and laughter. Though the concert was boring,to some extend i realised there was at least entertainment. I love Colin and Ish choice of songs despite having the petite women,Ms Marina! I think their performance stand out the most since prolly it was their first time performing compared to the other bands whom regularly took on the stage in every extravaganz event. Isn't that boring seeing them gleefully owning the stage. Perhaps? Other than that,it was average and odinary this year unlike the previous years.

I did not manage to snapped any pictures with any of the teachers. Ultimately i am exhilarated having my picture taken with my friends. Yeah!

And off we go to Vivo to be delighted by the things there. Haha! And i bought a red Topman hoodie which was rather cheap. They are selling it at a pathetic 50 bucks?!

BAKING COOKIES SESSION!

Thursday 28 August.

Dang! It was cool baking cookies which turns out partially horendous. I wonder why the cookie dough expand drastically?

BEST FRIENDS!

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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Being human is about making the best decisions that aren't necessarily the right decisions.

I jolted awake in the morning and rationalise how bushed would i rather be later on. Trying very hard to fall back asleep but i was able to think about was you. I never seems to enjoy the morning irksome train ride and i would be indignant through out the lackadaisical and apathetic journey.

I'm alone. Abandoned. Forgotten and forsaken by everything that ever mattered to me. Don't shut me out. Please, I'm begging you. You are all I have, everything else is gone. I am hanging by a string to life. Sometimes wishing the string would be cut loose.

Why am I so obstinate on not changing my ways? The logical and sensible thing to do is to move on, start a new life.

Perhaps never.

CARBONARA :D

Labels: Anoerexic

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Monday, August 25, 2008

I will always love you like the way i use to. The sullen agony swept me and i was forsaken.

Being hesitant and doubtful or complacent and audicious?

Was i being compelled?

Labels: Insecure

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Sunday, August 24, 2008

I wasn't in the zone and i hasn't been keeping myself on track lately. A few weeks left or to be more specific, i am left with 35 more days to the EOY examinations. I am indeed agitated easily but i doesn't seems to get the answer why. Probably with the test results that i've gotten back hasn't shown any improvements or was i not putting in enough effort. Yes I am clouded and dreadful but still, i am trying hard enough to get into 'Through Train'. Fortunately, this is reality.

Sadly, i failed my combined science. Perhaps, chemistry pulled the total combined scores drastically. In addition, i do not understand a single thing about the subject. On the other note, i passed Geography and Poa. And sadly, i lost a pathetic mark to get a B3 for english. Sheesh! I felt thwarted and worn down. I shall not underestimate or neither should i overlook at it.

I do not understand why do some people in this world are so capable of lying. Incredibility of how much they can lie and to the extend of it.

And tomorrow will be the day whereby i will complete my art assignment, the overdue malay composition, Poa homework and getting myself pressured on Maths and Biology.

I must have the momentum.

'Oh god!

Labels: sleepy headed

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

NUR RAFIDAH

Never did i came across someone fabulous

whom never failed to stay me rapturous and convivial. The sophiscated and elegance appearance of her just fulfied my day with the never ending gossiping sessions. Be it rain or shine, she will always be there for me. But ain't this photo intimidating? Mind you, Don't mess with her!

M NUR EMMAN

The only one who entered my life and leave no regrets behind. Isn't it nice of him to be my gossip partner, enjoying every bits of life and to be saucy and genial at the same time. Each passing days, i will be impressed with all my friends besides me. I doubt so but i felt so contented and neither would i will feel isolated or forsaken.

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Thursday, August 21, 2008

Afflicted and Remorseful.

I no longer felt the jubilant and gleeful i used to be. In fact, i am immortal now.

Mathematics and Biology test coming up!

Yeah i am exultant having another Biology test since i prolly did badly for my previous test with a pathetic passing mark. But as for mathematics, it enraged me taking another blow.

I wasn't in the zone and it might be too late.

Labels: I miss you

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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

I let myself think that my little trick had worked and i had successfully rid myself from anything harmful. But lessons are often forgotten and ironically enough,i have once again covered myself with a blanket that gives me the illusion of false security. Another tears escapes from the corner of my eye and trickles down the length of my face,giving into the force of gravity and falling to the ground.

My head starts to get louder and regret screams loud. I am always concious of the part of me that also wanted me to be myself. Still, i pushed harder and every breath became a challenge to get through until i snapped!

I would not think about the future anymore but i would always remember the past. As time went on, i passed through phase after phase of life.

With anxiety

Labels: Take me away

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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Our mission is not to get power,but to get our vison and purpose across.

Discipline Leaders' Board 2008-09.

MAY WE STRIVE AS ONE TO BE A DISTINCTIVE COMMUNITY!

I Shall not let it crumble and fall.

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Monday, August 11, 2008

The secret agony deep within; Acrimoniously didapitated.

The trail that defines the humidity from the scorching sun!

The sepia tinted photograph.

Dont leave me wondering and in thoughts of doubt.

A mist of confusion?

-Braces

Labels: I miss you badly

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Please lavish me with all those luxurious and branded things! Okay i am awake this morning and i love the aroma of morning dews that somehow will trigger my nostrils. Now, i am blog shopping with Charissa and i found some eye-catching things. Be it Bags,Accesories or even Boxers, everything seems nice. We are still deciding on which hoodie to buy. The designs are pretty good and the price is affordable; $25? Pretty cheap huh? I want the RED DIAMOND HOODIE! Sheesh!

And i want this darn shirt!

My birthday is on the 30th of december. Thank you!

Haha...Kidding alright :D

Preety huh?

Labels: luxurious

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Sunday, August 10, 2008

Happy Birthday Eeman! May God bless you in alot of good ways! Be it good or bad, it's up to you to decide. But too bad, You still have 3 more years to legal sex! Hope you had enjoyed yesterday Sentosa outing very much and lastly, I LOVE YOU!

Contented and Vivacious

Somehow, a wave of anger swept me. Never that i thought the acrimonious deep within could enraged me this far. Should i feel anguish or was i being humiliated? Am i that powerless or are you being too complacent and lethargic? I validated you but yet you overlooked at it as if nothing bothers you. I am baffled with words and derailed. Yes i am complacent but how about you? I am still anticipating things to turn right and now i am disillusioned and repulsed. I am hesitant to lose you and i am terrified once again. I desire you and entrusted you to be with me once again. I am doubtful and timid.

Yes i may be fatigued but i will love you like the way i use to...Braces.

Labels: Desire

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Wednesday, August 6, 2008

I am deliberately famished and i crave for splendid food.

I am fatigued but i doesn't seems to step back.

I am Obstinate and Reluctant.

Let this tinted photograph tells you how much i love you!

Labels: Confuse

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Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Have you ever heard the silence cry?

Yes,i know it may seem impossible but yet i kept a space just for you. I am just concluding the past, have i treasure you well enough or simply a waste of effort? I just couldn't get the answer why? Ostrasize? Yet simply it had never been vulnerable for me. Have you ever wonder the secret agony deep within my soul? Guess it isn't been a fairytale. I hardly see the figure of you and apparently you are busy and lagging behind time.

But i never gave up but persevere my heart dying will. The visoscity of your appearance filled the joy deep within. I am still anticipating you to make things right and desire the excitement being with you once again. I never felt that diminutive before but i perceive the exceptional time we used to have. I never omit you but i felt the gratification all along. I am fatigued yet obstinate. There is nothing much i can do.

I do not expect the answer now but i no longer wish to live in this stodgy life.

I LOVE YOU

Labels: Insecure

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Sunday, August 3, 2008

Pissed!

You Bitch! Get a life!

@#$%#$%^^&*&^%$#$@%&

STOP PRETENDING!

YOU THINK YOU ARE SOMEONE FRIENDLY? THINK AGAIN!

I KNOW IT ALL ALONG YOU ARE FAKE! STOP DESTROYING PEOPLE'S FRIENDSHIP AS IT HAS NEVER BEEN VULNERABLE FOR THEM!

ENOUGH OF YOUR ATTENTION SEEKING CAUSE I HAD ENOUGH SEEING YOU BITCHING AROUND TRYING TO STEAL MY FRIENDS.

YOU ARE SUCH A LONER OR SHOULD I SAY A SORE LOSER!

TO THINK AGAIN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOE HIM AND YOU HAPPILY SNAPPED A PHOTO WITH HIM. I HATE YOU.

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TRYING TO INSULT MY FRIENDS?

YOUR MOUTH SIMPLY REFLECTS ON THE RUBBISH BIN!

YOU IN FACT STEAL MY FRIENDS OUT OF CURIOUSITY FOR THE SAKE OF POPULARITY? FUCK YOU BITCH!

THIS FEELING IS INEVITABLE FOR ME!

STOP USING YOUR TWISTING WORDS OR LIES TO GET MY FRIENDS!

ALL THIS WHILE YOU HAVE BEEN BAD MOUTHING ME AND I SIMPLY KEPT QUIET BUT AS FOR NOW,TAKE THE BULLSHITS BACK

KARMA? YOU DESERVES IT!

AND YET AGAIN, WE TALK TO YOU AND SIMPLY DON'T TAKE IT AS AN ADVANTAGE!

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU NOW?

THE HATRED IS STILL ON.

DON'T EVER THINK I WILL SIMPLY GIVE YOU ANOTHER CHANCE AND LET ME TELL YOU THIS...

I WILL NEVER FALL INTO YOUR TRAP ANY MORE!!!

I WILL PYSCHO MY FRIEND NOT TO GET NEAR YOU.

GET A LIFE AND FIND YOUR OWN FRIEND!

WHOEVER THE PERSON IS I WILL KEEP IT AS A SECRET.

IT'S BETWEEN ME AND MY CIRCLE GROUP OF FRIENDS.

AND ALSO THE 4 WALLS.

DAUGHTER OF A BITCH!!!

Labels: Faking all this while

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Leave And Scream Baby!

I am famished! Basically, a thousand things happened today. Be it corrupted or not, i shall clarify it here. Beyond this smile i own, I am utterly disheartened with certain things.

Morning meet Fatin at Chinese Garden to exchange bag. Cool...Maroon Nike bag.

Then off to Clementi to meet Sheila and Belinda. Sheila was a few minutes late while Belinda was 30-45 minutes late? Sheila and me were like deciding should we donate a few cents to the charity while waiting for Belinda. Uhuh it's pathetic.

Then there is this uncle asked Sheila for direction and she don't understand a single thing what he's trying to say. Meanwhile, An uncle approached me and asked, "How to use the public phone?"

Okay...I went "Insert 10 cent coin and press the number. Can see the number?"

Then off to Queensway to make their percussion t-shirt.

Had our lunch at Macdonald and Sheila was so delighted to get the Olympic cup. Yes, She is cute!

Oh and i sms-ed Xiang Sheng, Happy Birthday!

Growned up kid already so be more mature!

But still 15 only, cannot have sex too bad! Haha :D

Went to band room and Sheila and Me was being chased by Roy. I don't really get it why we ran at the first place. Okay retarded.

Set the chairs everything with Ish and how kind of him to treat us drinks!

The weather was like freaking humid!

Band Sergeant Major, Lim Shu Feng!

She paiseh to take photographs =.=

We were given fun packs and that includes the straw hats. I look like those foreign workers and Janice look like Char Kway Teow seller.

Then minister came and so on...And it is our Band's turn to perform.

Turns out shitty and black faces can be seen clearly!

Note: Don't think the band did badly okay! My band did very well and they didn't screw up. They in fact watch me through-out the whole song and they manage to sort out the tempo well. Think again! Twist your brains! How is it possible for me to conduct your choir tempo half-way through the performance while they were rushing everywhere. If i were to go a faster tempo, the more hectic it will be. We were not trained to jump in or to cut through the pieces. Don't assume that the band is to be blamed people! If you are unhappy about it, FIND ME PERSONALLY!!!

Okay Ms Seah talked to us then. She was so reasonble to understand the situation at that moment of time. I was at the back with the percussionist, lied down with Sheila. We were so giddy that Sheila's face turned red while i need to gulp down 2 panadols.

Then snap some pictures. I love it baby.

Sheila went berserk and insane.

Then had Ex-co meeting. Okay here is the Sec 3s actions at that point of time

Ishvinder: Talking about random stuff with me!

Shu feng: Eating her peanuts!

Charissa: Trying to explain things out clearly.

Hong Ming: Give stupid ideas =.=

Me: Eating the sour plum thing!

Dinner at Mr Prata. Didn't really ate that much and Oohh..

WE ARE LATE FOR ACSI BAND CONCERT!

The concert was a total splendid show that evening! I can say they are one of the best band in Singapore and the concert was one of the best among the others. Superp!

The Brasses was a total BLAST!

I love the Trombone and the French Horn intonation.

I admire the woodwinds player! Their running notes were AWESOME!

Aishah and me find the whole band intonation are balanced and most of them were in-tune!

OMG! I LOVE THEM!

On the other note...

I want a Buffet clarinet on my birthday!

30th December,Note it down!

I will shed to tears if i got one. Perhaps, i am just dreaming.

I will never get one; It cost $4000-$5000? Like duh...

Somehow i am inspired by the Clarinet solo in both Rhapsody in blue and Blue shades!

And also the Piccolo player! Okay. He is splendid,marvellous,magnificent and many more...I Love Him!

Oh and HuiShan called me the gossip king. I shall take that as a compliment?

I am tired and i need the beauty sleep.

Go find the pics in Sheila's blog.

Don't bugg me! I am annoyed!

Sayonara!

Labels: They were in-tune

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Saturday, August 2, 2008

Gossip Day!

Screw everywhere! Okay I am pissed off with the ______ students in the school. I find them super damn annoying and irritating and i do not fetish those kind of people but they do get on my nerves at times! I arrogantly insult them here as not to please myself in fact i am stating a fact here. Stop thinking you bunch of people are perfect,cool,famous and all kinds of bullshits you think you are cause the fact that you people are putting up a show. Stop being so self-centered and somehow i find you people bunch of sore losers! Get It?

Malay is super cool!

I love Rafidah,Sheyra,Safiah,Eeman and Fina.

Somehow that person couldn't stop the lies and bullshitings!!!

Wadever huh? Get a life asshole!

Band was okay.

Pretty good but lack of discipline!

I made another gossip partner!

A real one in fact,

JACKIE MA WING YEE!

She rocks okay! Not forgetting Janice and Wijohn.

I simply love them.

We love to gossip!

@#$%^&^*$%^&***@#$

Dinner with Sheila and Ish.

I lost my voice due to the noise i made.

I laugh too much and i am not exaggerating.

Mr Giggles.

They simply made my day. Yay! :D

I just listened to Concerto D'amore.

Go check it out!

super cool!

Do makes me think of______.

I Love You!

(Okay,Freaking shit random)

I used to doubt you cared for me

When love was bright and blue.

We ran like puppies through a field,

But this I never knew.

Both said we were friends for life,

Not knowing what it meant,

Not knowing how to go through hell

And not somehow repent;

Not knowing love was something hard,

Like stone against the wind,

And life itself might be a prize

The heart would leave behind.

But now I know the depth of love,

And it was worth the pain,

Though not for love nor life would I

Go through that hell again!

Sayonara.

Indra hates Liars and Hypocrites.

LIKE YOU!

Labels: hatred madness

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