-Small things that made life great

2008-10-23T23:10:00.004+08:00

MOVED. Have you?

http://indrarara.livejournal.com/

But i will still keep this blog for memories. I will update here once in awhile.

ILY!

2008-09-13T18:35:00.002+08:00

I am so flabbergasted and my heart fluttered in trepidation. Exams are round the corner and i wasn't really prepared. I let out an audible sigh after seeing my report slip for term 3. I failed my combine science.

I need a Bio/Chem tuition teacher!

In the other note, i just found out that getting into through-train requires alot of qualifications. I will try my very best especially in getting 65% for english because that is one of the requirements needed. And also maintaining my class position as only the top 14 have the higher chances to make it through and im currently stucked down at 11.

So you see, I doubt i can make it.

2008-09-07T22:45:00.003+08:00

Guess i will stop blogging for now. EOY is coming real soon or infact it is in 2 weeks time. I need to focus to achieve my goals. So i may be gone for awhile and will be back after all the papers are practically done. Love :D

2008-09-07T00:45:00.003+08:00

Yes i know it is early in the morning but somehow i want to let this inevitable feelings out. In fact i am very remorseful now or should i say i am annoyed with different kinds of people behaviour nowadays. It does sound retarded somehow. Well...here it goes.

I find one of my classmate likes to exaggerate alot. Perhaps she is lacking behind in the flow. Prolly she got up way too excited and BOOM she could not control her hormones and letting herself run wild. I am getting sick and tired of her. You know crappy foolish things and the american slang that she always does. She's getting on everyone's nerve. Like seriously.

Next would be this 'stress' princess of mine. Oh come on! You and i are in the same level and academic stream and you are telling me you are stress with your studies? It isn't you alone okay. And if you try to imply that you are a leader who has TOO many jobs to handle, excuse me unlike mine?! Oooo...You are the only one having a leadership role. SO? BIG DEAL?

Why do such people exist in this world or people who are being indestrucible are telling me that we human beings are powerless? Do not be too complacent and anxiously wait to anticipate sympathy. Or let me put it in this way. Do not overlook or misjudge on the first thing that you assume. Like who in this world doesn't assume things.

& i didn't state any of your names here

so do not be offended.

Crappish at this late hour.

2008-09-06T22:36:00.003+08:00

Chatting with Syahirah and Fatin.

Oh Dearest!

My feelings isn't something for

you to toy with...

2008-09-04T22:23:00.005+08:00

The 2 gigantic cookies is for Sheila Chew, my beloved bestfriend!

Thanks for the rush!

2008-09-04T16:34:00.006+08:00

Oh screw it baby! Fasting month really refrain me from saying all the vulgarities and guess what? I am complete dying of hunger since my dearest mummy is currently cooking plates and bowls of food and the aroma simply triggered my nostrils. Starvation! On the other note, i will be baking cookies later on for my whole family. Wee! You definitely can tell how delighted i am ever since i've fallen in love in baking :D

Gleefully i walk getting all my ingredients right!

2008-09-03T01:29:00.002+08:00

I would not dare a glance back because I know i will see you. So I carry on up the beaten track and darkness swallowing my view.

I caught a glimpse of you honey.

2008-09-02T20:21:00.011+08:00

Social Studies remedial was a total remorseful one. In fact i was agitated since it was only the second day fasting. I swear i was in a total hunger and complete dehydration. What's more i need to refrain myself from those despicable vulgarities. Sigh. Okay it's only a month time and it will be over.

Soon perhaps?

Finally i caught a glimpse of you.

As i watch the rain fall, i do think of you.

2008-09-02T00:00:00.013+08:00

As i stood at the end, i remembered the begining.

Making up stories is your profession.

2008-08-30T23:55:00.003+08:00

What a way to end the day with snacks for supper despite having my room in a total despicable mess. Ultimately the leadership course earlier on was effective and to some extend i wasn't remorseful nor was i being lethargic during the training itself.

Run baby run

-Braces

2008-08-30T00:20:00.017+08:00

Happy Teachers Day!

Practically today was filled with joy and laughter. Though the concert was boring,to some extend i realised there was at least entertainment. I love Colin and Ish choice of songs despite having the petite women,Ms Marina! I think their performance stand out the most since prolly it was their first time performing compared to the other bands whom regularly took on the stage in every extravaganz event. Isn't that boring seeing them gleefully owning the stage. Perhaps? Other than that,it was average and odinary this year unlike the previous years.

I did not manage to snapped any pictures with any of the teachers. Ultimately i am exhilarated having my picture taken with my friends. Yeah!

And off we go to Vivo to be delighted by the things there. Haha! And i bought a red Topman hoodie which was rather cheap. They are selling it at a pathetic 50 bucks?!

BAKING COOKIES SESSION!

Thursday 28 August.

Dang! It was cool baking cookies which turns out partially horendous. I wonder why the cookie dough expand drastically?

BEST FRIENDS!

2008-08-26T20:39:00.003+08:00

Being human is about making the best decisions that aren't necessarily the right decisions.

I jolted awake in the morning and rationalise how bushed would i rather be later on. Trying very hard to fall back asleep but i was able to think about was you. I never seems to enjoy the morning irksome train ride and i would be indignant through out the lackadaisical and apathetic journey.

I'm alone. Abandoned. Forgotten and forsaken by everything that ever mattered to me. Don't shut me out. Please, I'm begging you. You are all I have, everything else is gone. I am hanging by a string to life. Sometimes wishing the string would be cut loose.

Why am I so obstinate on not changing my ways? The logical and sensible thing to do is to move on, start a new life.

Perhaps never.

CARBONARA :D

2008-08-25T22:29:00.002+08:00

I will always love you like the way i use to. The sullen agony swept me and i was forsaken.

Being hesitant and doubtful or complacent and audicious?

Was i being compelled?

2008-08-24T00:18:00.003+08:00

I wasn't in the zone and i hasn't been keeping myself on track lately. A few weeks left or to be more specific, i am left with 35 more days to the EOY examinations. I am indeed agitated easily but i doesn't seems to get the answer why. Probably with the test results that i've gotten back hasn't shown any improvements or was i not putting in enough effort. Yes I am clouded and dreadful but still, i am trying hard enough to get into 'Through Train'. Fortunately, this is reality.

Sadly, i failed my combined science. Perhaps, chemistry pulled the total combined scores drastically. In addition, i do not understand a single thing about the subject. On the other note, i passed Geography and Poa. And sadly, i lost a pathetic mark to get a B3 for english. Sheesh! I felt thwarted and worn down. I shall not underestimate or neither should i overlook at it.

I do not understand why do some people in this world are so capable of lying. Incredibility of how much they can lie and to the extend of it.

And tomorrow will be the day whereby i will complete my art assignment, the overdue malay composition, Poa homework and getting myself pressured on Maths and Biology.

I must have the momentum.

'Oh god!

2008-08-23T14:13:00.003+08:00

NUR RAFIDAH

Never did i came across someone fabulous

whom never failed to stay me rapturous and convivial. The sophiscated and elegance appearance of her just fulfied my day with the never ending gossiping sessions. Be it rain or shine, she will always be there for me. But ain't this photo intimidating? Mind you, Don't mess with her!

M NUR EMMAN

The only one who entered my life and leave no regrets behind. Isn't it nice of him to be my gossip partner, enjoying every bits of life and to be saucy and genial at the same time. Each passing days, i will be impressed with all my friends besides me. I doubt so but i felt so contented and neither would i will feel isolated or forsaken.

2008-08-21T22:39:00.004+08:00

Afflicted and Remorseful.

I no longer felt the jubilant and gleeful i used to be. In fact, i am immortal now.

Mathematics and Biology test coming up!

Yeah i am exultant having another Biology test since i prolly did badly for my previous test with a pathetic passing mark. But as for mathematics, it enraged me taking another blow.

I wasn't in the zone and it might be too late.

A mistake

2008-08-20T22:11:00.004+08:00

I let myself think that my little trick had worked and i had successfully rid myself from anything harmful. But lessons are often forgotten and ironically enough,i have once again covered myself with a blanket that gives me the illusion of false security. Another tears escapes from the corner of my eye and trickles down the length of my face,giving into the force of gravity and falling to the ground.

My head starts to get louder and regret screams loud. I am always concious of the part of me that also wanted me to be myself. Still, i pushed harder and every breath became a challenge to get through until i snapped!

I would not think about the future anymore but i would always remember the past. As time went on, i passed through phase after phase of life.

With anxiety

2008-08-19T22:37:00.003+08:00

Our mission is not to get power,but to get our vison and purpose across.

Discipline Leaders' Board 2008-09.

MAY WE STRIVE AS ONE TO BE A DISTINCTIVE COMMUNITY!

I Shall not let it crumble and fall.

2008-08-11T23:02:00.003+08:00

The secret agony deep within; Acrimoniously didapitated.

The trail that defines the humidity from the scorching sun!

The sepia tinted photograph.

Dont leave me wondering and in thoughts of doubt.

A mist of confusion?

-Braces

2008-08-11T01:16:00.003+08:00

Please lavish me with all those luxurious and branded things! Okay i am awake this morning and i love the aroma of morning dews that somehow will trigger my nostrils. Now, i am blog shopping with Charissa and i found some eye-catching things. Be it Bags,Accesories or even Boxers, everything seems nice. We are still deciding on which hoodie to buy. The designs are pretty good and the price is affordable; $25? Pretty cheap huh? I want the RED DIAMOND HOODIE! Sheesh!

And i want this darn shirt!

My birthday is on the 30th of december. Thank you!

Haha...Kidding alright :D

Preety huh?

2008-08-10T16:54:00.014+08:00

Happy Birthday Eeman! May God bless you in alot of good ways! Be it good or bad, it's up to you to decide. But too bad, You still have 3 more years to legal sex! Hope you had enjoyed yesterday Sentosa outing very much and lastly, I LOVE YOU!

Contented and Vivacious

Somehow, a wave of anger swept me. Never that i thought the acrimonious deep within could enraged me this far. Should i feel anguish or was i being humiliated? Am i that powerless or are you being too complacent and lethargic? I validated you but yet you overlooked at it as if nothing bothers you. I am baffled with words and derailed. Yes i am complacent but how about you? I am still anticipating things to turn right and now i am disillusioned and repulsed. I am hesitant to lose you and i am terrified once again. I desire you and entrusted you to be with me once again. I am doubtful and timid.

Yes i may be fatigued but i will love you like the way i use to...Braces.

2008-08-06T21:32:00.003+08:00

I am deliberately famished and i crave for splendid food.

I am fatigued but i doesn't seems to step back.

I am Obstinate and Reluctant.

Let this tinted photograph tells you how much i love you!

2008-08-05T22:54:00.004+08:00

Have you ever heard the silence cry?

Yes,i know it may seem impossible but yet i kept a space just for you. I am just concluding the past, have i treasure you well enough or simply a waste of effort? I just couldn't get the answer why? Ostrasize? Yet simply it had never been vulnerable for me. Have you ever wonder the secret agony deep within my soul? Guess it isn't been a fairytale. I hardly see the figure of you and apparently you are busy and lagging behind time.

But i never gave up but persevere my heart dying will. The visoscity of your appearance filled the joy deep within. I am still anticipating you to make things right and desire the excitement being with you once again. I never felt that diminutive before but i perceive the exceptional time we used to have. I never omit you but i felt the gratification all along. I am fatigued yet obstinate. There is nothing much i can do.

I do not expect the answer now but i no longer wish to live in this stodgy life.

I LOVE YOU

2008-08-03T22:17:00.005+08:00

Pissed!

You Bitch! Get a life!

@#$%#$%^^&*&^%$#$@%&

STOP PRETENDING!

YOU THINK YOU ARE SOMEONE FRIENDLY? THINK AGAIN!

I KNOW IT ALL ALONG YOU ARE FAKE! STOP DESTROYING PEOPLE'S FRIENDSHIP AS IT HAS NEVER BEEN VULNERABLE FOR THEM!

ENOUGH OF YOUR ATTENTION SEEKING CAUSE I HAD ENOUGH SEEING YOU BITCHING AROUND TRYING TO STEAL MY FRIENDS.

YOU ARE SUCH A LONER OR SHOULD I SAY A SORE LOSER!

TO THINK AGAIN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOE HIM AND YOU HAPPILY SNAPPED A PHOTO WITH HIM. I HATE YOU.

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TRYING TO INSULT MY FRIENDS?

YOUR MOUTH SIMPLY REFLECTS ON THE RUBBISH BIN!

YOU IN FACT STEAL MY FRIENDS OUT OF CURIOUSITY FOR THE SAKE OF POPULARITY? FUCK YOU BITCH!

THIS FEELING IS INEVITABLE FOR ME!

STOP USING YOUR TWISTING WORDS OR LIES TO GET MY FRIENDS!

ALL THIS WHILE YOU HAVE BEEN BAD MOUTHING ME AND I SIMPLY KEPT QUIET BUT AS FOR NOW,TAKE THE BULLSHITS BACK

KARMA? YOU DESERVES IT!

AND YET AGAIN, WE TALK TO YOU AND SIMPLY DON'T TAKE IT AS AN ADVANTAGE!

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU NOW?

THE HATRED IS STILL ON.

DON'T EVER THINK I WILL SIMPLY GIVE YOU ANOTHER CHANCE AND LET ME TELL YOU THIS...

I WILL NEVER FALL INTO YOUR TRAP ANY MORE!!!

I WILL PYSCHO MY FRIEND NOT TO GET NEAR YOU.

GET A LIFE AND FIND YOUR OWN FRIEND!

WHOEVER THE PERSON IS I WILL KEEP IT AS A SECRET.

IT'S BETWEEN ME AND MY CIRCLE GROUP OF FRIENDS.

AND ALSO THE 4 WALLS.

DAUGHTER OF A BITCH!!!

2008-08-03T00:56:00.016+08:00

Leave And Scream Baby!

I am famished! Basically, a thousand things happened today. Be it corrupted or not, i shall clarify it here. Beyond this smile i own, I am utterly disheartened with certain things.

Morning meet Fatin at Chinese Garden to exchange bag. Cool...Maroon Nike bag.

Then off to Clementi to meet Sheila and Belinda. Sheila was a few minutes late while Belinda was 30-45 minutes late? Sheila and me were like deciding should we donate a few cents to the charity while waiting for Belinda. Uhuh it's pathetic.

Then there is this uncle asked Sheila for direction and she don't understand a single thing what he's trying to say. Meanwhile, An uncle approached me and asked, "How to use the public phone?"

Okay...I went "Insert 10 cent coin and press the number. Can see the number?"

Then off to Queensway to make their percussion t-shirt.

Had our lunch at Macdonald and Sheila was so delighted to get the Olympic cup. Yes, She is cute!

Oh and i sms-ed Xiang Sheng, Happy Birthday!

Growned up kid already so be more mature!

But still 15 only, cannot have sex too bad! Haha :D

Went to band room and Sheila and Me was being chased by Roy. I don't really get it why we ran at the first place. Okay retarded.

Set the chairs everything with Ish and how kind of him to treat us drinks!

The weather was like freaking humid!

Band Sergeant Major, Lim Shu Feng!

She paiseh to take photographs =.=

We were given fun packs and that includes the straw hats. I look like those foreign workers and Janice look like Char Kway Teow seller.

Then minister came and so on...And it is our Band's turn to perform.

Turns out shitty and black faces can be seen clearly!

Note: Don't think the band did badly okay! My band did very well and they didn't screw up. They in fact watch me through-out the whole song and they manage to sort out the tempo well. Think again! Twist your brains! How is it possible for me to conduct your choir tempo half-way through the performance while they were rushing everywhere. If i were to go a faster tempo, the more hectic it will be. We were not trained to jump in or to cut through the pieces. Don't assume that the band is to be blamed people! If you are unhappy about it, FIND ME PERSONALLY!!!

Okay Ms Seah talked to us then. She was so reasonble to understand the situation at that moment of time. I was at the back with the percussionist, lied down with Sheila. We were so giddy that Sheila's face turned red while i need to gulp down 2 panadols.

Then snap some pictures. I love it baby.

Sheila went berserk and insane.

Then had Ex-co meeting. Okay here is the Sec 3s actions at that point of time

Ishvinder: Talking about random stuff with me!

Shu feng: Eating her peanuts!

Charissa: Trying to explain things out clearly.

Hong Ming: Give stupid ideas =.=

Me: Eating the sour plum thing!

Dinner at Mr Prata. Didn't really ate that much and Oohh..

WE ARE LATE FOR ACSI BAND CONCERT!

The concert was a total splendid show that evening! I can say they are one of the best band in Singapore and the concert was one of the best among the others. Superp!

The Brasses was a total BLAST!

I love the Trombone and the French Horn intonation.

I admire the woodwinds player! Their running notes were AWESOME!

Aishah and me find the whole band intonation are balanced and most of them were in-tune!

OMG! I LOVE THEM!

On the other note...

I want a Buffet clarinet on my birthday!

30th December,Note it down!

I will shed to tears if i got one. Perhaps, i am just dreaming.

I will never get one; It cost $4000-$5000? Like duh...

Somehow i am inspired by the Clarinet solo in both Rhapsody in blue and Blue shades!

And also the Piccolo player! Okay. He is splendid,marvellous,magnificent and many more...I Love Him!

Oh and HuiShan called me the gossip king. I shall take that as a compliment?

I am tired and i need the beauty sleep.

Go find the pics in Sheila's blog.

Don't bugg me! I am annoyed!

Sayonara!

2008-08-02T00:40:00.007+08:00

Gossip Day!

Screw everywhere! Okay I am pissed off with the ______ students in the school. I find them super damn annoying and irritating and i do not fetish those kind of people but they do get on my nerves at times! I arrogantly insult them here as not to please myself in fact i am stating a fact here. Stop thinking you bunch of people are perfect,cool,famous and all kinds of bullshits you think you are cause the fact that you people are putting up a show. Stop being so self-centered and somehow i find you people bunch of sore losers! Get It?

Malay is super cool!

I love Rafidah,Sheyra,Safiah,Eeman and Fina.

Somehow that person couldn't stop the lies and bullshitings!!!

Wadever huh? Get a life asshole!

Band was okay.

Pretty good but lack of discipline!

I made another gossip partner!

A real one in fact,

JACKIE MA WING YEE!

She rocks okay! Not forgetting Janice and Wijohn.

I simply love them.

We love to gossip!

@#$%^&^*$%^&***@#$

Dinner with Sheila and Ish.

I lost my voice due to the noise i made.

I laugh too much and i am not exaggerating.

Mr Giggles.

They simply made my day. Yay! :D

I just listened to Concerto D'amore.

Go check it out!

super cool!

Do makes me think of______.

I Love You!

(Okay,Freaking shit random)

I used to doubt you cared for me

When love was bright and blue.

We ran like puppies through a field,

But this I never knew.

Both said we were friends for life,

Not knowing what it meant,

Not knowing how to go through hell

And not somehow repent;

Not knowing love was something hard,

Like stone against the wind,

And life itself might be a prize

The heart would leave behind.

But now I know the depth of love,

And it was worth the pain,

Though not for love nor life would I

Go through that hell again!

Sayonara.

Indra hates Liars and Hypocrites.

LIKE YOU!

2008-07-30T22:11:00.004+08:00

Everything seems to end with a blink in the eye. I never wish this things to happen but somehow unlike drama series, it seems familiar. I wilted as the truth were revealed. It simply memories now and i treasure it well deep within my heart. Sitting gloomily by the side of my bed, no one knew the secret agony deep in my soul.

This special thanks are dedicated to Atikah,Sheila,Charissa,Ish,Fina,Shahira and Rafidah.Thank you your moral supports that i have been wanting for. I really appreciate it and i love you people.

I am so concern about my face now!

I start to realise that i need to take care my normal follicle or simply i will just end up having Follicular Pustule. Then it will slowly turn into in Inflammatory Nodule and i will just end up having a hideous scar on my face.

I am sick. It isn't anything new and i feel so didapitated by it. I feel so much warm surrounding my whole body and the flu is unbearable. I just doesn't seem to get the answer what or how it triggered my nose. My throat is burning. I feel like as if i swallowed a porcuipine and someone is tickling the adam apple.

This word no longer exist in my life anymore.

2008-07-29T23:44:00.005+08:00

Art hasn't been any vulnerable for me in alot of ways but somehow,i want to be successful in the career of art! Art was average earlier in the morning. We were made to sit outside since the sec 4s & 5s needed the room more than we do; I understand. The noise level outside were beyond describtion. Ms Mona made me draw this clown fish to coordinate with the theme that i had chosen. It's beyond my capabilities to complete it or should i try my best? The other art students were made to draw their items and i went HALO? They were made to draw shirts,bags and even necklace. It is way so easy okay compared to mine;Stupid Coral Fishes!

We need to draw the ouline outside the room and i was actually sleeping. I am so bushed! Also with the stress i am coping with gives me headache at times. So i was lying my head down and i didn't realise the art teacher of mine came out and she went "Indra,Wake up! Do your outline now!" Okay my fault i guess and at that point of time,there was actually nothing that came through my mind for me to hide myself away or to give the reason. But eventually,A soft voice from the background spoke up and said 'Indra is sick." Ms Mona went "Okay,Go wash your face." Thank you so much to that unheard voice that came to my rescue.

Shall i conclude everything? Secondary 3 is not a honeymoon year for us! My time hasn't been spent wisely what's more with the different roles that had been given to me. I only slept for like 4 hours each day to complete my assignment. I miss Lower secondary life where there is no immediate task given. I remebered i use to reach home at 6pm after shopping with my friends and upon reaching to my room, i was in a daze in my wonderland. Wow! Time does travel that fast.

And yar...Here is the worst fact about singaporeans nowadays; THEY ARE GETTING MORE AND MORE....KIASU! I mean seriously. When the clock strikes at 7am, the Mrt train will start to go packed! That is the main issue here and i hope the government will do something to improve on it. SERIOUSLY! I was in the train and i am suppose to alight at the incoming station. When the door opened,I crossed over my right feet onto the platform and before i knew, People are pushing their way inside the train. I was like a salmon trying to resist the current and for goodness sake! Early in the morning and i am pissed!

And i started to get mad. I did raised my voice and said "WALAO! SO KIASU!!!"

All of them were staring at me, giving that decent look on their faces =.=

I swear i got the intention to give them a hard tight slap on their back!

I DON'T CARE! I AM NOT AT FAULT, MIND YOU!!!

@#%$^*&#@$%^*&

That is the fact about life, get the picture?

SAYONARA :D

2008-07-27T23:57:00.005+08:00

The Biology Student.

I conglomerate my brain cells to study my Biology and i put aside mathematics somehow it end up inside my drawer. I am so lazy to memorise all the despicable notes in to my brain and deliberately, it sucks big times. Suddenly it stucked me and i need Ms Wong now. Hey, she is good okay! I like her thinking mindset and i respect her for that.

For somehow, I wasn't been talking to Kenneth since a long time. I am just afraid that he flared at me due to the string of vulgarities that i striked him with. Hey, i apologise for that. I guess it's my fault that probably made him ostracize me. I should not implicate others but this is what i had done towards him. It really clobber down my perceptions and this is what the outcome is.

Can i take my words back for granted?

I am sorry and perhaps, let time tells the story.

Boo...I am tired. Screw mathematics and Biology tomorrow.

Pancreatic juices+Polypeptides+Duodenum

+Oesophagus+Epiglottis+Quadratic Equations+Graph

= BONKERS!!!

2008-07-27T12:10:00.032+08:00

TODAY!

I shall study at home and mug for Maths and Biology since the test is tomorrow. I shall incalculate the habbit of 'Put things first' if not nothing will be accomplish. I shall keep myself on track today and later on i will be out with my family. A poverty cycle that goes round and round. Sometimes,i realise as a student myself,i spent 3/4 of my life in school rather than at home and that isn't a good thing i guess.

YESTERDAY!

I went for the malay competition. Met Baizurah at Jurong East platform and we took the longest route to Toa Payoh. We did that as to reward ourselves with the empty seats.We started gossiping through out the journey.Hey,gossiping is fun okay! Then we met Emman there and we took our own sweet time to reach the venue. Half-way there,we met our competitors seating at Macdonalds and for goodness gracious,they had fun staring at us! Erm,Excuse me? Can you all concentrate on your breakfast meal instead of staring at us? Do you want me to poke every single of your eyeballs?

When the competiton started,I seriously thought we couldn't match up with the rest of the other schools standard but instead we did better. I am proud of Emman and Baizurah as we managed to pull through this competition. We managed to answer the question without having any doubts and guess what? Baizurah managed to answer all the question in a straight row! That is so commendable and i guess she's the only one who could do that. But as for me,Erm here's the funny thing. I could answer all the medium-hard question but when it came to the simple ones,I went speechless. The word was swimming and i had difficulties with it. How dumb! I just hope we will get into the finals and bring glory to the school.

Then had our lunch and bus-ed to Botanic Garden. We had camwhore madness! Here's the picture that we snapped together.

We pretended to be a Kiasu yet Photogenic tourist & look at our bonus faces!

We had done our very best and i am proud of each and everyone of them. All i can say is that i am confident with the outcome! I LOVE THEM!

Friday,was Racial Harmony day in our school. It was fun as i managed to skipped lessons for the whole day! Here are pictures!

Sayonara :D

2008-07-22T20:12:00.005+08:00

Drama Day?Alot of things happened today and i was didapitated. Firstly my malay;I just could believe it that neither Me nor Baizurah gotten the highest for our common test. I was so disapointed and devastated with the results and i mean no offence here. URGH! How can that be?!

Character Education was a free period i guess? Dionne can't stop crying over something that Lucas had done to her. I should not elaborate any further here and the situation wasn't so bad after all that can conclude molesting or something. Just something minor and the way Dionne cried can be heard from a distance. WOW! Not bad uh Dionne! Keep it up! Heh just being witty:D Lastly Me and Sheila was pissed off with that Thean Yew! He super damn irritating i tell you!!!

Art...Nothing to say! All i can say is that i went speechless and bonkers too!

English was okay except for Sheila! She damn funny i tell you. She was arguing with the teacher and she was obviously wasn't sastified with that Mrs Yeo! Sheila raised her voice and Kong Li like somehow join in the big fun!

I am so agitated now and somehow i went over the lethargic illness again!

Atikah: Be strong okay? Cheer up and think on the positive side:D

Sheila: Just now you went insane is it? Haha:D

Kenneth: No comments scandal!

2008-07-20T16:40:00.014+08:00

My Brain Cells Are Partially Dead!

Yet again i planned to study but somehow i wasn't keeping myself on track. I am so dreadful to study and my face is stuck to this laptop screen. Probably i need to focus correctly rather than wasting myself here. I shall start revising at 5.30 and i will be back at around 10pm? Shit! Band tomorrow morning; Again troubling with people attending for band. This has been a major issue since like...Ummm? I am not sure.

Somehow this picture on top here brings back a thousand and one simply memories. I shall not describe it as a turbulent past but instead a journey for this two classmates! I remembered we had a tiff during our sec 1 years. We couldn't get along and she cried over the tiff. Seems i don't know why. But now time has changed. We are so close now! I simply treat her as my best friends and it is vulnerable for me. I am so random here...I shall now declare that Sheila Chew is inside my best friend list now!

Haha. That women in the picture is simply the best,bimbotic,bandmates and best friends in the whole entire region. I sounded so lame here but anyway. I treat her like my sister and i wonder why people kept asking this,"Are you both siblings?" Should i say a yes? Ummm...I remember the time that i sat beside her during SYF last year. I was a clarinetist back then. She kept me entertaining and her gossiping skills is much appreciated by me. It was the best time in my life meeting her. Fatin Fadhillah is loved. Thank you my tetek for everything you had done for me!!! Should i say i love you? Nahhh just this once, I lOVE FATIN!:D

Somehow i miss being a clarinetist myself. Not to say i hate playing bass-clarinet but is so randomly boring. I miss playing the high notes on clarinet and can easily be squeak. Oh men! I also miss the running notes on clarinet especially the term 'SaPaRuRaMen' Somehow it brings back memories. Rather than bass-clarinet sustaining note,playing crotchets and lots of air need to be pushed through. I understand that i am important to support the whole band;So called the leg of the band. Urgh...2 more years to go!!! Patience Indra!!!

2008-07-20T13:24:00.003+08:00

Game Over!

I just could not kept the words that i promised.

I had been putting up a false show

in fact i am hurting inside.

I shall not shed any tears

but i will.

What is over is over. There is no point thinking nor talking about it.

Let me have the relapse of my mind.

Take me away to a secret place...

2008-07-20T01:21:00.003+08:00

Am i having Insomnia?

I can't seem close my eyes and start to wonder in my wonderland. Somehow i miss drooling my saliva on my pillow. Isn't that the best damn thing?

Oh yes! I miss Obs. Freaking shit rindu sey. I miss my Da Gama watch and the members there especially Joshua Ong! I remebered that he sang for me 'Bleeding Love' during the sea expedition. I was having sea-sick madness and i lied down. It was freaking painful i tell you; Imagine you're out there in the sea for 10 long hours. All i can say is that it is 100% tiring for sure and is damn shitty boring. Turn to your left or right, it's just sea water. Luckily i have a portable MP3 along; Joshua! Thank you so much lar!!!

I am not gaying about him but i treat him as my brother. ONLY :D

Suddenly i want money to flourish down from the sky! I need at least 800 bucks to go shopping. I need to update myself rather to stick on with what i have. Guess i am so materialistic than what i usually thought. I want to lavish with Prada bags and Topman clothings. As for shoes, i need some smart shoes. I don't like going all about with slippers or sandals or even aqua shoes. It's like, yikes!! Disgusting!!

I AM FREAKING SO WAY TIRED!

2008-07-19T23:32:00.001+08:00

Sadly Unwritten

Finally, i managed to steal the laptop from my sister. I shall begin by saying that i am not feelin good and in the mood for nothing. I am having the sky-high stress disease with 6 test coming up next week. It is so deteriotating and i planned to study today but somehow i got no mood to squeeze my brain juice.

Yesterday was alright. Had Geography in the first period and Victor was back from his absent from the previous day. I had no idea what on earth had strucked him as he kept entertaining the whole class. We were sitting right at the back and people in front kept turning behing after huming his tune and stared at us. He was singing Click five songs and at times, i wonder why wouldn't he just join the Clementeen idol contest. I strongly agree that he has good voice and looks. WHY?

Biology is full of crap!

P.E was fun. We played don't know what version of netball but somehow those irrtants which mainly consist the chinese girls wasn't enthusiastic about the game. Come on! You don"t have to do this until you made Atikah pissed off right? Can you twist your brains abit to think that this just only a game. A game not a tournament!

Enough of lessons!

Then band;Another havoc! There were only 30 people who turns up for band and i was so ferocious that i feel like burning down the band room. This is specially dedicated for the bandmates! To think that we only have 55 members in band,stop thinking that you are not important. Stop being so self-centered and giving reasons to the ex-cos or your SLs that you have headache or some other trashing rubbish you have provided! Do you know how deteriotating it was sitting there waiting for people to turn up? The most disapointing thing is that some of you are the Section leaders and Executive Members! We had given you the trust to enable you to lead in whatever way there are for you but this is what i get?! As a student conductor myself,i know that it is not easy to lead but with your cooperation,everything can gets done! Have you ever think for those other bandmates who regularly turned up for band? I can see for myself who are working so hard and who is not! Even Sheila has improve on her attendance lately and that is so commendable. Think!

We are one band one sound!!!

Dinner with Fatin,Ishvinder,Sheila and Kong Li at LJS. I wasn't really have the mood to eat but i could not resist my body temptations to eat; and i think im fat due to eating fast-food way too often. Then went to sky garden with Sheila and Kong Li to play the circle turning wheel thing and we snap some photographs. We pretented to be models and capturing for our photo albums.

2008-07-17T20:05:00.001+08:00

THE ELUSIVE STAR?

"Sheesh!" That word seems familiar right? That word belongs to HANE the pain and i miss her.

Maths are boredom i mean seriously.

English is funny.Take this scenario...

Mrs yeo:Those without your books go to your class and take it now!

We: Yes!

Mrs yeo: i will accompany you guys upstairs.

We:Okay!

7 people went out from the class including me

(I mean i lost my freaking book and what do you expect?!)

Mrs yeo:Okay this way to the general office and we gonna see the Vp!

7 people turned back and walk back into the class!

I was like a dumb ass standing up and went outside and come in again with a frightened heart! I was so pissed! Hello!?

POA is shitty! Next week test again.

Ce is funny. We were talking about races and religious so kenneth made stupid comments and the class were laughing about him. Kenneth, can you keep your comments to yourself? Haha. But anyway it was funny and i love every single things that he does!

Malay combined with the rest of the malay students. Nothing actually happened today. Very bored! Oh yar! Kenneth got an american dick while Glenn got a japanese dick! See, i am insane to get to know about this O.O"

After school went to Masquerade to change our clothing for racial harmony day with charissa and i will be wearing a cassanova costume that day! Charissa will be wearing a victorian gown on the day itself and it was freaking bloomy at the bottom.

I miss my Bassclarinet. Hello? I am the owner or a PRESTIGE bassclarinet and it cost over 12 thousand bucks! Obviously i will love it to death!

2008-07-15T20:52:00.003+08:00

THERE SHOULD BE NOTHING TO BE HAPPY ABOUT!

LALALA! Geography was boring but elyas kept me awake the whole period. We did something sinful i guess and it was vulnerable for me. Art was free period! YEAH! I didn't complete my art homework so you should understand why i am so ecstatic. English i cannot stand but burst into laughters thanks to Atikah and Kenneth. Somehow i don't know what was kenneth's problem. He kept disturbing me and taking my pencil box. Like i know lar i miss you but you need not have to react for this. Maths Kenneth ask this deteriotating question.

"EH! You miss me ar? You want suck or poke?!"

I went speechless. Oh my goodness sake!!!

Then after school something happened and i shall not elaborate here. I wasn't really happy with the situation now. Oh Yar!!! The band biggest bitch sucks lar!!! You think you big ar? Slap your breast then you know. Fucker i hate you lar. Stop showing your concerns for the band in fact the band standard is dropping now! You think being biased in front of the whole band is good?! If you want to know who the person really is,ask me personally and if i say no means NO! If you are the person, i will roll my eyes and walkaway. That is where my true diva bitch shines! Please lar for goodness sake; Fatin and me hates you to the damn core! Fatin, I miss you tetek. Band friends forever! we are siblings right? HEH!!!

Days are getting horrible and i feel shitty now.

2008-07-13T18:36:00.003+08:00

MY MIND IS SCREWED~

I Miss alot of things and it is playing through my mind. I have tons of homework and i need someone to my rescue. I have not sort out some band things yet and it is killing me. I miss alot of people and here's the list of them...

Syarafina
Rafidah
Emman
Sheyra
Baizurah
Elyas
Shazuan
Irfan
Atikah
Safiah
Hidayu
KENNETH(ALOT!!! Happy or not scandal? *****!!!)
Sheila
Fatin
Syahirah
Michelle
Farhain
Joshua Ong
Shafinah
Kong li

Here's the complete 20 person on my list and i miss them alot though it's only 2 days. I am insane right now and something must have triggered me somehow. I have indulged 2 vanHoulten chocolates,1 jar of skippy peanut butter and a bar of toblerone chocolate. See, I just could not resist my body temptation. I want to sleep my whole entire life but i will be missing out things in life. Is there a solution to this?

English-Lame shit
Maths-Bored to death
Malay-Homeworks and more
Art-I went speechless +.+
Biology-I don't know anything
Chemistry-Can die
Geography-Alright

Sudddenly i feels that i have much more bigger responsibilities than the others. I know it well and i know must fulfil it.

2008-07-10T20:31:00.002+08:00

A NEVER HAPPY ENDING.

Sheesh...I do not really know the innermost feeling in myself right now,I mean i still can get emotional if things horendous occuring around me. This mixed feeling really troubled me and not to say it is hard but i am not prepared to break down and cry. It is just like a pot of curry added with so many spices. The different spices represents my feelings and I could not really say how i feels now. I really do not know the causes that triggered my whole body...

Devastated
Irritated
Pissed Off
Contented
Stress
And many others...

Today was alright i guess. Geography was fun but really I could not stand Elyas and Victor's laughter i mean it is so contageous but later on victor fell sick during mathematic lesson. OORRR!!! Rest well okay??? Drink plenty water hor. Somehow i sounded like my mother. I was enjoying every seconds of laughter in malay lesson. Eeman,Rafidah,Baizurah,Safiah,Farhain and me was so busy talking. Then we snap some of Luqman's picture. I do agree that he is cute and i envy him for his looks. Alot of people are chasing after him can. Sorry Luqman. I was so deteriorating during that lesson like super hell!!! From Luqman topic to facial creams. Then after school went to eat with Shafinah and Wirnida in the canteen. Wanted to eat with my friends but i stayed back too long doing my class duty. URGH!!! So went on to play soccer with them but still, i sit aside due to something that is bothering my mind and menonton perlawanan bola yang tidak kurang baiknya!!! 2 Elusive soccer players men. Woo not bad. Then went off to jurong point and Collect my laptop and paid the remaining balance of $1100 since my sister deposited her own money first. Then home-ed and here i am blogging. Oh yeah! There is this fucker message me without telling me who the hell he/she is. Kept on denying. It is so irritaing and i am pissed off!!! FUCKING COWARD!!! Still dare to asked me personal question!!! I'm gonna curse you,BITCH!!!!

Chemistry test
Geography test
2 Coca-cola shading
Mindmaps on Seafood
2 Malay composition
English test
Band Scales test

THIS IS JUST THE BEGINING AND THERE IS STILL MORE TO COME!

I MISS YOU SECRET INFATUATION!!!

EVERYDAY IS SUCH A DISSAPOINTMENT. DAMN YOU PEOPLE!!!

2008-07-08T17:01:00.001+08:00

Life Is Not A Bed Of Roses

Morning woke up supposingly i need to meet Atikah at Clementi mrt but she was late. I was fine with it. Plus we both suppose to have an assembly speech today but it was post-poned to tomorrow. Yeah! Indeeed it was rather fun today;SERIOUSLY! I enjoy every bits of happy moments just now. Basically this is what happened...

English:For goodness sake! It was so dead boring but still, Irfan and Atikah jokes made me burst into laughters. It was so fun at the same time listening to our Teacher nagging. I could not tolerate her as she was talking about some self characteristic things and pinch of religious things. URGH!!! She keep picking on Atikah and obviously Atikah was damn pissed off with her. I mean i am not siding anyone here but sometimes it is rather unreasonable that Atikah seriously did not talk and she gets the scolding. Here's a short scenario...

Mrs Yeo: Keep quiet Atikah!

Atikah: F***!!!

Mrs Yeo: That's very rude! Respect begets respect!

Atikah: (Rolled her eyes)

Art: Ms Mona was not really happy with us due to something. She talk to us for at least 3/4 of the period but still,She wants the best for her art students. I really think through about what she said earlier on and yeah, I will put in 120% of my best effort in art. I am still deciding on the theme for the mini coursework. I promised to myself that i will get at least an A2 for my art.

Malay: Busy talking with Eeman and Rafidah. Rafidah wored her retainer and she sound 'pelat'. Hahaha. Damn funny:D

POA: Ms choo was okay today. Atikah sat beside me and i wasn't really paying much attention with her around. We kept on gossiping and camwhore. It was tiring though. Wanted to sleep but bet with me a MILLION DOLLARS Ms Choo gonna bang your table!!!RARRR!!!

After school went to orchard with Eeman,Nafsiah and Jia Yan. Eeman need to get another ipod or something then accompanied him. After that, The girls went off and we both enjoyed our lunch at Seoul Garden. i will update the pictures soon. I try but no promises. Basically everything was fine other than some shocking news. Indeed i ENJOYED tuesday 8th of july!

Braces:I really think that i need you right here by my side. I miss you alot but i wasn't sure how you gonna react to this shit that i am getting from you.It felt so close but it was further than what i thought. I felt like a butterfly with a brokened wings. I feel so insecure and my mind going wild. Do think about how i feel right now. It's not painful but a MISERY. Miss you braces :(

2008-07-07T19:58:00.001+08:00

I Smiled Bleakly As The Memories Pierced Through My Heart.

I am back from Courts with my sister and we bought an Acer laptop at the price of $1899. Kinda cheap to me but still no regrets at all. Back at Jurong point i saw Min and Hui lin so just smiled and waved at them. Then went to Fox and met Atiqqa with her family. My vision was blurred at first since i did not wear my contact lens but still i managed to see things through. But deep in my heart, i felt so demoralised by someone. Someone that had been with me for 5 days. He really made me realise that i am someone different, someone that is beautiful in their own way. I really miss him terribly. Some how i just hope to see him and have a long chat with him.I did sms-ed him but no reply. I was so devastated. I feel like my friendship with him is just a waste of time and effort but still, his face will remain in my thoughts. I feel damn hurt.

2008-07-07T15:30:00.001+08:00

Nothing much happened today as usual, ROTTING at home. Woke up at 11+ and received 12 missed calls from Fina darling; It's our anniversary today!!! A year had passed and we are still going on strong. I Love You Alot!!! Then went online and here i am chatting with Amos,Michelle and the all time favourite babe ever, NUR RAFIDAH!!! Yeah we were talking about laptops and some other personal issues. For laptops cause i'm buying 1 later at courts with my sister. OMG;YEAH BABY! i wanted the red Vaio but idah said it isn't good other then the striking red that i had been admiring for a pretty long time. Probably i'm buying a new Jack pursell school shoes but it isn't confirm yet. It all depends on my sister mood la. I am very reluctant towards her...How evil.